Judgmental, snobbish, up-themselves and generally too much to handle. Far too many programs already in place and inflexible to the degree of pedantic arsehole...... Well I met such a man the other evening for a drink....he has done nothing but send me emails on my behaviour which are sad as much as funny...he couldn't take my forthright personality (sometimes I do admit its a little over the top) but it does always weed out the wheat from the weeds, as the saying goes.
I had forgotten about this type of male and he says he wants to date women hence being on an internet dating site but in actual fact he is more concerned about what his friends might think of someone like me instead of seeing the happy and friendly person I am by judging me and saying in an email that yes I would be good to play with but not good enough to meet his friends. What a wanker.....
Made me think long and hard about who and what I am and how others peceive me...but came out the other side with the knowledge that I am a good person with a great empathy for others and someone who is willing to take on elephants in the room. This in my book has been a honed skill over the years by having to bring up children on my own and being both male and female parent on many an occasion.
Our programming does come into this - he has stopped and I am still progressing which for him I feel has hog tied his beliefs and of course is so entrenched that he can't change. OMG the most important think in life for me is being able to go with the punches and also take on board new and different perspectives - maybe I am a chameleon and blend in where ever I may be - but I don't go around judging anyone, especially on a first meeting and then giving them grief for not being what they wanted.....well onwards and upwards.
Not very nice to cut and paste the emails in here and I would love to do that, but I'm not that crazy today....maybe yesterday I would have, but today not so much.
Going off to reevaluate my thoughts and motives for even being on a dating site - this is not about my age its about trying to meet friends and not stay stagnant and inflexible. Oh and I think I am maybe a tad still romantic enough to believe that there is someone out there for me but what a bummer of a journey and do I have the guts to keep going? Now that is my conundrum and today's issue to fight, fix and forgive myself and get on with my life.
